Wednesday, February 29, 2012

The Sweetness in Real Life

I don't know why, but ever since i finished my high school and leave almost everything behind at the school's entrance i could not stop talking about having a "boy" that whom i can love and of course gave twice as much love i gave. i know it's kinda weird and it might sounds desperate but i'm just thinking about my future way too much. hey, i don't only thinking about having a boyfriend, husband and etc only, okay ! i also think about what course to take, what job can i get easily after graduated but i'll not telling you guys about that. instead, i'm here to update and talking about about the pure innocent sweet romantic true love that happens around me. i know lovebirds can be such a pain in the ass, annoying and even make your stomach feels unwell. but hey, when people too busy talking about how "meluat" they are. well, i'm just admiring and love the good things. when i said, i love watching lovebirds it is not the one that holding each other's waist in public without any legal bond. NO ! so not that one ! in fact, i'm talking about my parents.

I will be lying if there wasn't any hard times and argument between them. but for me, it is just amazing how an almost 30 years married couple can still be so romantic. my dad might not be as funny as your dad or even sociable like your dad. he might be cold, fierce, and short-tempered in your eyes. but in my eyes he loves his family the most especially his wife, my mom. my dad are not like any other dad that when to office in the morning and come back home in the evening. we can only see him maybe 2-3 days a week. he doesn't work here in KL. so, whenever he has the day off he'll be driving back home to spend time with us. it's really amazing how he remained calm and patient, more importantly loyal to us all these past years. he had never cheated on my mom and i believe he'll never do so. i think that's the benefits of having an unsociable dad. LOL. my dad, are indeed a superdad ! 

Compared to my dad, my mom complaints more, she talks more, nags more, and of course she's more romantic although she's not that romantic but if i have to compare to my so not romantic dad, she's great ! my mom might said "papa, is like this and that" but i know she loves him most and she holds back a lot. she always give in and build up a lot of patient's wall in her heart. my mom might not be serious and she did act like a child for so many times. but, she's the greatest mom i could have ever wished for. she loves her children and she never disappoint them. okay, maybe she did several times without her knowing. LOL. she's not good on keeping secret but she's the type that can give a piece of advice that can make me cry remembering about it. i got my sweet talker tongue from both of my parents. they are good on saying and giving warm words like i did. haha. but in my case, i'm more poetic whenever i write to someone.

I really hope that they still remains the same like they did today. a little sulking and misunderstanding scene might be cute sometimes, but don't do it too often because it can be annoying. LOL. i hope that 10 years from now, i can still see the both of them holding hands whenever we went out like now, how my dad randomly hug my mother from behind, how my dad randomly call my mom's name whenever he's in good mood and will have the love quarrel whenever they are being childish. i seriously have a good example of healthy relationship. thanks to them ! i love them forever and i wish them all the happiness in the world. i'm gonna keep on praying that this happiness remains until jannah ! 

iloveyouguysuntilthelastbreathofmine!

Monday, February 13, 2012

The Upsetting Fact...

all through these past years, maybe i have been receiving too much love from my family so i guess it is fair enough if i doesn't receive much love and attention from others. that's what i have always thought but doesn't be able to receive much love compared to what i have given is really upsetting. the feeling of trusting someone and loving someone but the people doesn't really feel and treat the same way like we did, ah that feeling is just as sucks as the feeling living in the world without trusting any people at all. 

people always said that the world is cruel and mean but what they did not know is the people living in the world is actually the one who is cruel. i know i might i have said this things many times but please just pretend that this is the first time you listen this words from me. to share this whole wide world with other people from different family and having difference personality are sometimes unbearable. to hurt and to be hurt, these two things feels the same to me. both makes me feel bad.

i love to watch movies and dramas although mostly might not to your guys liking but who cares ? for me every each of movie and drama taught me to see the world from different perspective. i don't know how film's critics gave comments saying this movie is this and that movie is that while i have a great time watching it and able to see the world from a different point of view. i know there are sometimes a film which i never wish to watch again but that doesn't mean i did not gain anything from watching it. if all the people in the world has the power to feel what others' feel, i think they will all try their best to not hurting each other feelings. 

learn to be understanding, think before you talk and make any action, see the world from different perspective and try to accept people's point of view. if you have a pure heart and brain i am sure you will use the ears to listen, the eyes to observe, the mouth to say good things, and the body to make a right action. because a pure heart and a rational mind can always lead people to great life. at the end of the day, it will always be ourself alone to make the decision and it is always our choice whether to choose the right path or the wrong one. other people might guide us but we are the only one who can change ourself